words
if i could see. sgc

if i could see how it listens.
hear how it looks

if i could see

i wouldn’t be here
i’d be on edge of the world
overturning mountains with an eyelash
or punching holes in the ocean floor

id be taking this planet away
ending its misery
much faster than you.

The land of the free range. 
nt


we're starving because
you've heightened our 
hunger
beyond our means
to fill
we're starving because
you've programmed our
mind
to reject our
spiritual will
in a world ov consumers
who will be the producers
the animals are revolting
and the plants are paved
with the streets all 
leading 
to our shiney new home
in pleasant plastic New Rome
where we can simply
consume
consume
consume
consume our way to glory
consume till we fill that hole

and when the stores are empty
from the overwhelming holiday demand
we've got entire countries 
at our beck and command
we'll entice the other nations
with a nice New Rome vacaction
for everyone knows
everyone wants 
to be one with us
and if they reject
oh if they protest 
our hunger can be
violently persuasive
consume 
consume 
consume
consume our way 
to the promised land

and in the end 
if we find no other race
to consume in space
we can allways pretend
and
consume our selves 
right off the shelves
perhaps a canned
"Spleen ov Me in Spring Water"
will make us all content

my god is OMNIVORIOUS
and by our power
will 
eat
you
whole
a cross the bear. sgc

Who knows, and who cares
its all about 
the gluttony 
we share

You are my cross the bear. 

We all have our guilty pleasures. 
And the pleasures of guilt.
wrappings up needles
and sniffing 
the silt

a deafening quiet
shakes me around
the vitals jump
and hit the ground

I'm quite cold


where are you

when i am drowned?


underneath the surface of death
i look up and see my self
reflected in the 
ripples of consciousness

beckoning to drag
me forth 
from the dark sleep
that i desire
back from the dark
that i require

a cold perfection

a silent fault

a nightmare in bloom

the origin of sin


i shed this skin
and fall away
to the other side
a light burns
in a sea of a trillion bulbs
flickering in the distance
to spare this
rotting pebble

eden lay in ruin.

Salvation is a ghost.
The mistakes are to great
to retreat into a 
shell of innocence.
The hole cannot be closed, 
or filled.
For this tragedy 
a judgment shall fall

A day of unity will arise

and 
the 
aware 
will 
die

the understood 
shall rise and see the fall 
of 
humanity.

amen.

breaktime/deadtime

its not a cage 
its an aquarium
its not a prison 
its a retirement home
need a cosmic vacation
put a bullet in your head
need a cosmic vacation
get hit by a bus
and be a child for a while
-anonyme
mainstream

mainstream
american
appeal
the most expensive
gossip
in the world
we paid for blood
they scream greedily
when the show 
is a tie
-Lord Thra'en
decae danse

the twisting nightshade
conceal their light
making wasps nests
out of mud
until the buildup
comprehends
we'll convulse 
in the sun
-Lord Thra'en

after life

I walk in a place
Where life has no will
I can't help but pace 
Will I ever be still 
I stand for a second 
To think of tomorrow 
Its you I do beckon 
To take all my sorrow
But when I turn 
Its me I find 
Waiting to burn 
Till the end of time 
I crouch on the floor 
Away from the pain
I crawl to the door 
And pray for rain
Pray to a lord 
Who never hears
Pray to a lord 
Whom everyone cheers 
I wish to find 
That endless place 
I look to find 
Your loving face 
I scream so loud 
As my eyes go blank 
I spin around 
Like an enemy tank 
I fall to the ground 
As my face turns white 
I shiver to the sound 
Of this endless night 
And then its all done 
As he touches me 
He whispers "My son"
And then I see 
The beauty of life 
Wasn't meant to be 

Brent Csutoras 

pacify

my lungs collapse as i can't breathe
i hear the growling voices seethe
why can't i ever live in peace
will my problems ever cease
i can't comprehend what i've put you through
what will it take to get to you
i cannot live alone like this
i close my eyes and make a wish
my own shit's too much to bear
so why am i supposed to care
her secret past bleeds in my life
i need to run i need a knife
what the hell am i here for
to heal her scars that are still sore?
i'm not a doctor i can't stop her pain
i watch my own blood drip down the drain

-Becky Wallis

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scarlet blossom, scar-lit flame

don't just sit there and take all that shit
the fire is burning, the flame has been lit
don't just stand there, it's a slap in the face
their eyes pierce your hatred, get out of that place
there is no escape to the pain i endure
i would never go back to relive it once more
i wish there was freedom from these rusting chains
my freedom will lie in their cold, severed viens
will i ever be free from this nightmarish trap
will i ever awake from this stare-stricken nap
my weary glazed eyes are opening now
to get back at them, i'm discovering how
my silence is golden, noise no longer heard
i hold in my anguish i can't say a word
my rebellion is silent, but still it fights on
it grows stronger yet with the light of each dawn
it's now a blazing fire, melting all my chains
but along with them burn my hopeless remains

-Becky Wallis

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cavern

…in the essence of a dream, he stays in my mind
searching for my love who's so hard to find
in lack of the skill to climb out of this hole
i kick out in rage to reclaim what they stole…

-Becky Wallis

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dig

…please look at my wrists, how they speak for my pain
now look in the fire, what is there to gain
this blackness surrounds me, and calls out my name
i dig deeper yet, but the blood stays the same…

-Becky Wallis